I couldn’t help but chuckle to myself when I wrote the title to this post- I seem to do make a lot of “that’s it!” type promises to myself. I feel a little bit differently about that one I am about to propose, however; because I am very relaxed; I am not writing this in a binge induced stupor or panic; I feel very clear headed, and I just need to be very clear with myself. Writing this on a blog, although certainly does not guarantee success, at least makes me accountable and creates a record of the promise I have made to myself.
A few comments helped me realize that just eating healthfully, while great for weight maintenance, probably will not help me lose enough weight in under 8 weeks for my wedding (55 days from today)! Because I have waited until the last minute, I will need to take drastic measures in order to reach my goal. Between tomorrow, June 22, 2009 and August 15, 2009, I will follow this plan:
June 22-June 24,2009—> Juice fast, to “kick start” diet and enter ketosis as well as get a big water loss (it’s a good ‘psychological’ start for me)
June 25 through (& including) August 14, 2009: Medifast 4 & 2 Plan; 4 medifast meals and combinations of L & G —> Under 100 gram of carbohydrate per day
If, as of June 30, 2009, I have deviated from this plan, I am going to just buy a new dress . I will have to face the humiliation of talking to my dad, explaining that he wasted $400.00, and eventually explain to my family members who have already seen and loved my dress that I am buying a new dress because I am too fat to fit into the one that I chose. I will just accept that losing weight for my wedding is not going to happen. Here are my goals for the following 55 days:
June 22-June 30: Complete 3 day juice fast and get started on 4 & 2 plan; do not deviate from diet. (see consequences for deviating above)
July 1, 2009-July 31, 2009: Stay 100% on 4 & 2 plan (Obviously no more binges) for entire month of July. (see consequences for deviating above)
August 2009:
August 1-August 14, 2009: Stay 100& on 4 & 2 plan (same consequences) (Try on dress for first time on or after August 1, 2009!)
August 15 and beyond: Transition into healthy eating plan and no more binges!
I am ‘scheduling’ an optional binge for August 18, 2009. That’s just under 2 months away. It is 3 days after my wedding; I have a doctor’s appointment on the 17th so I don’t want to binge on that day (I’m sure it affects my blood pressure, heart rate, etc.) Of course, I hate the thought of ever binging again, but I am telling myself that I can binge again on a certain day, if I really need to. Hopefully, that will help me stop ‘cold turkey’ over the next 55 days! I sincerely hope that I will not actually want to binge on that day…but we’ll see when I get there!
I will be sure to write every day (the next 72 hours will be challenging- I will be sure to check in just to keep myself on track) from now until the 30th. I will also post my weight on June 30, 2009, and every week thereafter, between June 30 and August 11th.
It is hot hot hot. I am feeling so tired and grouchy in my sauna (apartment). The place we are moving in 2 weeks has central air conditioning, I can’t wait!
I hope everyone is having a happy and healthy weekend. Check in soon!
June 22, 2009 at 3:28 am |
I found your blog through Pasta Queen, too. Girl, you are the original Bridgit Jones! Smart, funny, sensitive, and running in about 50 directions at once. I feel your pain. keep blogging, not matter what.