Jason & I got into a bad argument last night and I didn’t sleep as well as I would have liked. At 11 I still was nowhere near falling asleep so I re-set my alarm for the usual time (7AM) instead of ‘going to the gym time.’ (5AM) I really have a hard time making it through my day if I’m tired- my emotion regulation, impulse control, etc have a tendency to malfunction.
For these first few weeks, I need to be extra careful, both of the ‘discomfort’ I described in yesterday’s blog, and of situations such as this that seem to make me more vulnerable to a binge. I am feeling a little sad and stressed and this can make things more difficult. I don’t think I really know how to just ‘sit with ‘ my feelings. There have been numerous studies recently that show that any type of difficult mental task, or activities such as watching a sad movie, have a negative effect on ‘willpower and vice versa- for example (I will attempt to find this study and add a link so you know I’m not just fabricating studies to support my own hypothesis) researchers had people sit in a room filled with cookies and fudge but were allowed to eat only radishes. When asked to perform a math problem, those who were forced to exercise their willpower first performed worse on the math. I think this shows that we only have a finite amount of mental/emotional energy, and when those resources are being used in one area of our life, we need to be very deliberate about how me might focus any remaining energy. Today, I will focus on being successful, hour by hour.
I’ve been breaking up my ‘lean’ portion in half so that I can have eggs for breakfast. This week I’ve been eating 1 egg with 3/4 cup liquid egg whites and it seems to work much better for me than eating oatmeal (which I love) or other carbohydrates. Plus, it delays my first ‘official’ medifast meal, which gives me more eating episodes during the day. I must say, I’m getting to a point where hunger is not much of an issue.
I’m silly- I’m just beginning day 4 today and I took my measurements this morning, hoping to see that they were magically the measurements I needed to fit into my dress. There wasn’t an appreciable difference. I can’t say that I actually expected to lose inches in 4 days but it sure would be nice!
Hopefully I will be able to blog again after work. I hope you all have a wonderful day and check in soon.
June 16, 2009 at 1:28 pm |
Sorry about your fight, but thanks for sponsoring my race. I’ve added your link to the sponsor list.